So sad :/ Disappointed.

I'm on Facebook & I went to check Patricia profile. Patrica's boyfriend died this summer. Even though I don't know her, I just want to see how she's doing. It looks like she's getting better day by day which makes me happy. But it's so sad how they last met, said I love you to each other and poof, he's gone. </3 I just saw her status and it made me cry on the inside. "The hardest about this trip is trying to have fun knowing you're gone. Something new happens everyday & i can't even tell you about it. I miss you Carlos :|"  That is so true. Everyday something new happens to me and I can't wait to tell Edward about it. I always told him everything on my mind. But that was the past. Now he's all busy with work and working out or basketball. I'm not important anymore. Why I wanted to cry when I read her status is because she can't tell him anything because he's gone. But my dork is still alive. He's still living in this world and yet I can't tell him.