Smart Julie plugged the wifi back in so now I can use the iPod to type this. Right now it is 4 05 am. I just got done crying. Mommy said some real mean stuff I didn't want to hear at all. It's so gay I don't even wanna write it here. Right now I need him the most. I miss those nights where we would stay up and he would make me feel better every time I cried. But now when Im said I have this feeling all I have left to turn to is air. I miss him but I don't listen to out music or think bout him anymore. It hurts to think about him that's why I try to occupy myself at most as I can. During the day I play it off fine bur during the nights I can't handle it at all. :/ why must I be so attached to him? Why must I make him my first priority when I'm obviously not? Why must I make him my everything because one day if he decides to go all I have left would be nothing. Calling out your name, your face appears everywhere but when I reach out to you I get a sensse of disappointment to find that you're not there. Im so tired I think that's all for now goodnight and sweet dreams.
6 :36 pm - I just saw an article about an 11 year old girl who fell out of a 156 ft high Ferris Wheel. :/ She was awarded to go on a class trip because she had Honor Rolls and now she's gone forever. Life is so unexpected. No matter who you are or what you do, you never know one day where your life just gets taken away from you..That's why you should live everyday to its fullest and treat everyone well because one day you might never know. You can lose them. And..it will be too late.
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