Skating

Today Edward && I planned to see each other again at the Skating Rink.(: Nancy, Lubaina and Myrtle were also there with Frank's mom and the little kids. It was nice seeing Nancy and Lubaina again.(: I miss them and it's so sad they won't be coming back next year. :/ but I had a great time with them haha and again Edybear came late. That punk so Nancy called him and he said he would be there in 20 minutes but it seemed like forever!! Anyways...when he came ahh he had a boquet of flowers in his hands <3 and he gave them to me <3 they were so beautiful OMG that dork :) I never received flowers from anyone before haha and I was so happy so I came and showed it to mommy and idk but she was super mad! She said I couldn't take these flowers home :/ :/ she was being so mean urgh so Edybear ended up taking it back home. :( :( It sucks. but then afterwards, we skated together and this girl that worked there told us to pick a song and she'll play it for the both of us <3 We picked the song Love Story by Taylor Swift ahh but it was so romantic. I still cant forget that feeling <3 Everyone's eyes were on us. 120209

Why you gotta be so mean?

So sad :/ Disappointed.

I'm on Facebook & I went to check Patricia profile. Patrica's boyfriend died this summer. Even though I don't know her, I just want to see how she's doing. It looks like she's getting better day by day which makes me happy. But it's so sad how they last met, said I love you to each other and poof, he's gone. </3 I just saw her status and it made me cry on the inside. "The hardest about this trip is trying to have fun knowing you're gone. Something new happens everyday & i can't even tell you about it. I miss you Carlos :|"  That is so true. Everyday something new happens to me and I can't wait to tell Edward about it. I always told him everything on my mind. But that was the past. Now he's all busy with work and working out or basketball. I'm not important anymore. Why I wanted to cry when I read her status is because she can't tell him anything because he's gone. But my dork is still alive. He's still living in this world and yet I can't tell him.

Angel's Birthday Party

Today was Angel's Birthday Party. Edward's mommy said I could come haha so I asked Ahmad to take me to "Nancy's Birthday Party" After he picked me up, he went to pick up Ammar, then Jocelyn then we waited in the HSA High parking lot for Edward's mommy. She came like 20 min later haha I was hoping she didn't take the big truck cuz I was wearing heels and I didn't know how to get in  but luckily she took the small car lol (OMG AHMAD LET ME REVERSE IN HIS CAR) Anywhooo, hahah when I got in his mom's car she hugged me and we talked A LOT in ENGLISH! I didn't know she knew English! Hahah I felt soooo dumb cuz the whole time I was trying to talk to her in SPANISH! >.< Haha she talked a lot about Edward in the car( && it's a secwet) :P She took me to go get gas and the dollar store to get balloons and all. Then we went back to the house and some people were setting up. I went inside the house and Angel saw me and screamed JENNIFER! WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?! Haha he was excited and he went to call Edward and idk me and Edy were both shy lol so we were like hiding kinda and Angel kept screaming. Then Edy finally came out and hugged me and he took me to see him room lol it was small && messy  That messybutt haha my rooms messier :P  Then we played a bit of xbox and Angel kept jumping on me and all haha && he cussed. A LOT. He kept saying OOOOHH SHITT AND FUCKER AND FAG AND BITCH. -_____- && the funny thing is that he wasn't shy around me. AT ALL! Lol but then a lot of people came and Edward didn't stay much with me and haha his momma had me making hot dogs! It's funny. I NEVER made any at home haha Then around 80 people came and they kept looking at me.Lol the house was HOT. There wasn't any AC so Edy told me to go to his room and he bought me pictures.Hahah he's sooooooooooooo adorable! He let me keep one picture.(: Someone couldn't control themselves && it wasn't me ;)Blah lol and idk there was one thing that bothered me. When we were walking pass that group of people, I held his hand but he kinda wouldn't let me. Like he pushed it away but he realized it and tried holding my hand but I pushed it away. AHH IDK :(

Skating!

So Edward told me that he's going skating today with me(:  Whenever I get to see him somewhere, I get soo excited and nervous haha even butterfies. Well I picked the clothes the night before and got everything ready. Around 10 30 we got to the dentist for an appointment to clean out teeth and I got like 6 cavities -______ urgh but I always brush bleh mommy had to get her wisdom teeth removed. It must hurt a lot. Ouch. && Around 1 we got to the Roller Rink and no one we knew were there yet. Then comes Frank, Travis and Gerald's family but no  sigh of Edybear yet. He said he might even come before two!!! Hehe I can't wait lol like the thought of him on his way excites me that I can't even concentrate on skating. Lol and he came late and he called me and idk he sounded kinda cranky. I don't know. But around 3 he finally found the place and haha so I got back to skating with Jenny and then she said tall person and I knew he had came and when I saw him I fell hahah I was soo excited :D Like you don't know how happy I was . AHHHHHH! <33333 Then he said he's not skating so I got sad a bit because I was looking forward to that. But anywho he eventually did.(: && we skated lol then this little black girl keeps falling on purpose so that he would pick her up. I think she likes him lol ^____^ hahah but I caught her. Lmaaaaao then we just continued skating and the punk won't request the boyfriend song for me . It would be so romantic if he did <3 But anywho haha we skated I fell so many times but I like it because everytime I fell he would reach out his hand and pull me up and I get to hold his hand for a bit hehe it was AWESOME with the music and everything. Angel was super shy of me. But that's going to change soon I hope lol and then around 4 it was time to go :/ I was a bit sad but I was happy because he's going to come back next Thursday soo YAY! && P.S He gave me Angel's invitation hahah he looks soooo cute! <3333

Afterwards, we went home and I was texting Edward like around 4 30ish and I knew he was doing something because his replies were " i know he's doing something." Lol but I don't mind. Then mommy came in and we had like this one hour talk hahah time passes by fast. In this world I guess I can say you don't need your friends. They come and go. They leave you. Well I can't say anything. I left Sofia. My best friend. && Til this day, I totally regret that. I really do. But mistakes can't ever be fixed. Anywhooo, my dork said he was dissappointed in himself because he couldn't work out because he didn't eat enough and it was hurting his stomach. I kinda felt sad when he said that because I don't know. BUT I couldn't show that of course. Like I said I can't say anything that will make him worry or make him sad. I don't know where I stand in his heart. I really don't anymore but I know how much working out is important to him and it makes him happy so I tried to think of things to help him but what I say, seems to not be working. :/ Daddy called me out to help with the tiles but I decided to stay a bit more because I didn't want to leave Edybear feeling sad. But then daddy got mad and even rang the doorbell and yelled for me so I had to go. The tiles were so heavy, it's not that light. My foot bleeded and i dont know what I stepped on but it hurt so much. && I kept thinking about it so I keep stacking more and more tiles to the cart and me and Jenny pulled it and I basically ran and work unloaded the tiles. I don't think I ever worked that hard and fast. But I didn't want him to wait so I hurried and when I finished I ran in to call him I didn't even have enough time to catch my breath. When he picked up he sounded so sad:/ Was it me? I don't know but he sounded okay after that. Anywho I have to go shower now. He's waiting.(:

That dork

Haha so my dork told me on Saturday before leaving to work, he had left me a voicemail. I wanted to check but   I didn't know how to so yesterday I asked Jenny because she done it for mommy before and somehow she resetted the password for me and I got to hear it haha aw dorky you sounded so nervous haha aww me sabed it so eberyonce in awhile me can hear it.(: <3 Te amo mucho mucho mucho mas punk <3 120209


Ah dumb period is making me grumpy >.< Hurrry up and finish so I can make my plans to go swim with my Edybear. <3

Urgh I feel like this to whoever talks to me right now.

What A Gloomy Day

I woke up with a text from my dork haha that punk <3 Anywho I don't know. He was sad about the Casey Anthony trial, that she had been plead not guilty when she had killed her 3 year old daughter. I didn't know much about the little girl's death so I searched it up and found out some things. It made it seem like the mother was the murderer since all evidence pointed to her but why wasn't she charged? I don't know but it made Edward upset. I didn't know what to say to make him feel better. :/ But then he said he had to go change to go work out at the gym so I left to the living room to watch tv and help Jamie with her division. I was a bit upset about last night because we said we were going to name our turtles but he fell asleep but I don't blame him. I guess me being upset is temporarily, it's going to go away soon so I shouldn't make a big deal out of it. Then around 2 hours later I went to get the phone and saw a text from him that Duke is gone and Animal Control has him. Urgh that old white guy next door called them.  At least Duke gets to come back tomorrow. But I sense Edward is still feeling something. I don't know what though. But then he starts sending me happy text messages. I sense that he's just trying to cover it, I don't know why.

I was upset I guess this whole time. It's because I'm watching this drama and it's really said. It makes me think about life. How little time we have and we don't know when life is going to be taken away from us. I don't know but now I have to grow up and suck it in because when you love someone you don't want to worry them. I have to be a big girl now. For him.<3

Worst 4th Of July Ever

So today is the Fourth of July and it sucks! No fire works or anything, >.<


I'm upset. Why don't the people from my dad's side of the family treat my family as their family? I mean my aunt Huong even took out her friend's daughter who she just met with her daughters to the movies instead of Jackie and Jamie. What the heck? That is sooo messed up plus it's a holiday. Like when we went to their house yesterday it's like our existence is absent. Everyone else in the house matters but us. I even enjoyed talking and playing with this two little boys who aren't even my cousins. Whaaaat? Plus, whatever we do everyone does it and tries to do it better. It's family. Why does everyone try to strive to be better. That's not family if you're always jealous and always competing. I hate this place. I hate all my "family" here. I wish we could move to a place where we know no one, well at least not anyone from my "family." All soo stupid. They just love all the nieces and nephews who are the daughter and son of my aunts. I'm starting to think about my place in the world. If I die would anyone miss me?

Yeah, I'm fine.

• Boy: Babe what's wrong, you okay? :/
• Girl: Yeah, I'm fine.
• Boy: I know you better than that, I'm always going to be here for you. You can trust me, I'm not going to tell anyone I promise. Are you scared to tell me something?
• Girl: Just because I have a pussy doesn't mean I am one babe.
• Boy: Yeah and just because I have a dick, doesn't mean I am one either. I know you are scared to open up towards others. I understand that guys may have fucked you over, took advantage of you, didn't treat you right, and ignored you for all the wrong reasons. But I'M not that guy, it sounds cliche and everything but It's true. I've been through the exact same things as you, you think I haven't felt the same? Girls left me, lied to me, cheated on me, didn't trust me, and told me they aren't into me as much as before. YOU finally show up into my life and make me happy, smile, laugh, just flat out helped me enjoy life. You really think that "Yeah, I'm fine." really means your fine? Come on you think I don't know you that well? I've fallen for you hard enough to know that something's not right. Baby I'm not going to treat you like those other douche bags have, you just have to trust me. We will always have our little arguments here and there but nothing will push me away from you, even if you push me physically I'll always grab you back and never let you go. I will fight for you and be your knight in shinning armor and your umbrella when it rains, you helped me open my eyes to so many things. Why can't you just open yours and see that I'm here and here for a reason, FOR YOU<3
• Girl: <333 :']
• - fucking lucky ass girl I swear.

17 Months

Saturday, July 2, 2011

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vMU7zHR4Wxc&feature=relmfu

in my room alone

i dance to my favorite songs

i look in the mirror like 

i laugh at my own jokes

i cry and get sad

i see amazing post on tumblr

im on the phone with my friends like

and my mom burst in like

If she walks away, follow her.
If she cries, hold her tight and don't say anything.
If she gets mad at you, grab and kiss her. Remind her she means the whole world to you.

A little something ;)

Hehe

I guess I am okay now..been happier. But this morning I woke up with this pain in my chest. I miss him SO much like I felt like crying and I don't know why. Hmm I slept with Mr. Beary last night. I imagined it was Edward hehe && noooo that "hehe" did not mean I kissed it! Lol I just slept with it. I wish it was him though.(: But yeah the whole day I was trying to finish al those AP work due Thursday ( Chem) && Friday (APUSH). Finally done with Chem. Grr. && then I was helping mommy wrap wontons hehe the whole time I kept thinking about him. Edward loves Wonton Soup , the spicy kind. As I was wrapping it, I kept asking myself when is Edward going to get to eat the ones I make?

Tired

So I was heading off to sleep since it's almost 4, but then I decided to reply to him. Then I get a message from him at the same time and I didn't believe it? He shouldn't be up this late? bKA=== I TIRED FINSIH TOMROWOR

Lol that dork. I was tired but I purposely said that I couldn't but that punk won't say anything. >.<

AHHHHHHH!

The dork is back!

L.I.F.E

"Have you ever just wanted to scream? Because no one is listening to you. Have you ever just wanted to run away? Because no one understands. Have you ever wanted to hurt yourself? Because no one cares. Have you ever wished something bad would happen to you? Because you want sympathy. Have you ever wished someone would ask you ‘what’s wrong’? Because you need to vent. Have you ever just wanted to lock yourself in your room? Because you need to get away from life. Have you ever just wanted to text that boy/girl that broke your heart? Because you know the old him/her could make you smile in a heart beat just by replying to your text. Have you ever cried and ran to the mirror to make sure it looked like you didn’t? Because your family just wouldn’t understand. It’s okay. Me too."

A response

He messaged me. I had typed a long paragraph to reply to him but somehow I ended up sending him a sentence, " why are you here?" I want to know what makes him message me at this time. Is it for me or for him? I wanna tell him so bad that I miss him terribly but I don't know how. I want to express all my feelings to him but I can't.

Why? :/

Stupid Creepers.!

Today my mom decided to take us out since it was a Friday. We went to West Oaks then to Walmart. West Oaks was okay. I wanted to buy this headband but it wasn't enough because Jamie wanted a wallet and Jackie wanted this marker holder. Anywho at Walmart, it was weird. There were these two Asian guys that followed me and Mommy and they were oold.! && According to Julie, they kept looking at our butts? :OO Ew. && Then we went to the Men's section cuz Mommy wanted to buy tanks for him && Jenny pointed to the guys underwear section and there were batman boxers haha I was tempted to buy it for Edward lmao xD && Then there was this fat white man who kept looking at Mommy and complimented her lol her reaction was funny. When I was posing for a picture he walked back and watched and he left but came back and when I told Julie to turn around, he ran. It was scary. I hate that.! :/

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Another Day

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You

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

 

Dreams

BLAH </3 I think I saw you in my sleep, dorky. Your face was so, so clear. But I'm scared mine might be fading in yours. It's been so long already. How are you doing? Tell me, how are you doing this? Why do I need you more than you need me? Sigh... I guess now all I can do is look forward to seeing you in my dreams.

OH EDWARD...WHY DOES EVERYTHING REMIND ME OF YOU?

http://www.directlyrics.com/the-script-for-the-first-time-lyrics.html

MAKE LOVE, NOT WAR

One day..

One day you're gonna want that girl, The girl that wasn't perfect but tried to be perfect for you.

The girl that believed the scraps of you she was given were worth it because something was better than nothing. That girl who wanted nothing more than to be there for you and love you the way she knows she only could. The girl who sees your flaws but values them as much as your strengths. That girl who can't bring her self to hate you, even though sometimes you probably deserve it. That girl who saw past your pretty face and treasured parts of you that no one else had ever appreciated. The girl who realizes she may never have your heart but will carry the image of you in hers forever. The girl that sees this and still loves you. The girl who wishes she could have you but doesn't even think she deserves it.

Songs That Reminds Me of Him

SING TO ME <3

Love Story
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qTlcxXByERA
Nothing Even Matters
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Hwn7qVa9Qnk&feature=related
Boyfriend
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ql3FMswDftw
Hero
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dCOu1CSgeCg
Next to You
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=How80IHtAUU
Cherish
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uAlq8yvYgaA&feature=related
Swing Life Away
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CaJezu6OnNw&feature=fvst
Skyway Avenue
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LCspAGvJW4Y
Beautiful
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fSMnQIsnlLM
Check Yes Juliet
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s1R_txIuuio&feature=related

DUETS:
Heartbeat
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hHvSV741omk
Need You Now
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dlj6Fwel_R4

DANCING ;)
On The Floor
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=clhShDTN6NE
Stand By Me
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UqWexqEIn68
So Close
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q2WHo5bGRNw
Can I Have This Dance?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qO2VwoTiOCQ

Strangers Again?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tSdELZxEnHY


Hehe, I made money today (:


Ah, I watched The Mummy awhile ago, it was scarwy :( I wish he was here to hold me.. Why do I always watch scary movies when I know for sure I will be freaked out by it? I wished I wasn't so curious x.x Ah moms gonna pull the wifi out soon, i'll finish it later.

Another lonely night

Smart Julie plugged the wifi back in so now I can use the iPod to type this. Right now it is 4 05 am. I just got done crying. Mommy said some real mean stuff I didn't want to hear at all. It's so gay I don't even wanna write it here. Right now I need him the most. I miss those nights where we would stay up and he would make me feel better every time I cried. But now when Im said I have this feeling all I have left to turn to is air. I miss him but I don't listen to out music or think bout him anymore. It hurts to think about him that's why I try to occupy myself at most as I can. During the day I play it off fine bur during the nights I can't handle it at all. :/ why must I be so attached to him? Why must I make him my first priority when I'm obviously not? Why must I make him my everything because one day if he decides to go all I have left would be nothing. Calling out your name, your face appears everywhere but when I reach out to you I get a sensse of disappointment to find that you're not there. Im so tired I think that's all for now goodnight and sweet dreams.

6 :36 pm - I just saw an article about an 11 year old girl who fell out of a 156 ft high Ferris Wheel. :/ She was awarded to go on a class trip because she had Honor Rolls and now she's gone forever. Life is so unexpected. No matter who you are or what you do, you never know one day where your life just gets taken away from you..That's why you should live everyday to its fullest and treat everyone well because one day you might never know. You can lose them. And..it will be too late.

Nicholas Sparks Books

Yay today I finally finished a Nicholas Sparks Book. ^^ It was a sweet story && of course romantic. But it was sad in the ending. Ben's dad died while trying to save him. I always know that every Nick Sparks books have a sad ending yet I still read it. But everytime I finish a book, I feel all sad and all and I wished Edward was there to hold me. Even in this book too. But yeah. One day we have to read a book together. During school, I checked two of the same books that me and him can read but he had to read a Spanish book and one fro Ms Bell so that's why I didnt bring it up but yeah I wish we can read it one day. ^__^ 120209

Hehe I never told him...when I was reading Dear John, i imagined us and the ending left me crying. A LOT. I dont want that to ever happen to us....anywho this reminds me when we went to the movies and watched it ^^ I rememeber it was full so we stood near the door and he kept kissing me and kissing me. He didn't care who walked in or who was watching. Haha i like that ;D But yeah it felt very romantic even though my neck hurted sooo much. Cuz I'm short lol I had to reach up xD 021410

This is what he wrote in a note he gave me, well it was in the album ^^

"Dear Jennifer =)
      I remember about this. You told me about Dear John and that it was a good book and that you wanted to go see it. So me bought it and read it.=) and si mi amor it was a good book but we're not going to end up like them I pwomise dork. Dear John was so awesome on Valentine's Day si? For me it was. =) I got to hold your hand without worrying if anybody was going to catch us. =) I felt so free mi amor. "

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QvQ29dw7_Wc

Every Love Song Reminds Me Of You <3                                                                                                          
   
‎                  Finally just breaking down in tears because you cant take it anymore

Mission Accomplished

  If only we could kiss forever                                   He's the one I dream of at night    
This moment would end never                             he is the one who holds me tight
      your lips against mine                                         he's the one who's true to me
      is a dream come true                                            together forever we will be. 
   And all this is happening 
  because i fell in love with you

I look at you and i realize just                                                            i think everyday of what i did to
how much you've been a part of my life                                            deserve you. No one in this
how special you are and how much you've                                      world could treat me as good
made me happy. i look at you and i realize                                        as you do. Since Ive met you
that heaven must be missing an angel.                                         i felt like the most special girl <3

‎I Feel Happy To see You Happy
 


Girls are like apples on trees.
The best ones are at the top of the tree.
The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt.
Instead, they just get the rotten ones from the ground, that aren't as good, but are easy.
So the apples at the top think there's something wrong with them.
But really, they are amazing.
They just have to wait for the right boy to come along.
The one who is brave enough to climb all the way.
To the top of the tree.

I Guess I Can Call It The Start Of Summer.

We've moved to Houston about 11 years ago. 11 Years Later my dad finally makes his decision to take us to the beach. The only beach I ever went to was the Galveston one with Roger's family & Jenny & Julie but that was a couple years back. The one we went to today was called Surfside Beach. It took like an hour and thirty minutes to get there but we needed more time because daddy got lost. :OO Anywhoo we got there around 9 45ish. The beach was alright. There were a total of 12 kids, including me being the oldest. So when we got in the water, mommy starting yelling shark, shark! At first, I thought she was trying to scare us but when I looked I saw two fins in the water. I forgot how I felt. I wasn't scared lol it was more of an exciting feeling.(: But yeah it was soooo COOOOL! x) Every one left the water for awhile til the coast was clear. So we went up to eat and this cute little boy asked if he could get me a drink and he bought me back juice haha soo adorable. His name was Calvin, the one that always had a booger in his nose lol ew >.< Then mostly I just played with the little kids and watched over the youngest, and smallest one, Anthony. I enjoyed the wave a lot. The whole time I thought about Edward. I wished it was just me && him there. That's always been a wish of mine: To spend a day at the beach with him. We would run around chasing each other, go swim together, build our castle for the King && Queen but for now it's the Pwince && Pwincess. (: Then when the sun sets, just sit there, arm in arm, hand in hand, holding each other, sitting in the sweet silence. <33.......

After awhile, I just isolated myself from everyone & found a place on the beach. I just kept writing his name, my name, our names, and I LOVE YOU on the sand..&& I found some really pretty seashells so I can finally make that picture frame for Edward.(: I was going to last year but my aunt threw the cup away but it's okay I found some better ones afterall he deserves the best. Argh I got a pretty bad sunburn everywhere. reminds me of the Japanese Fest when me and him both got sunburns haha x) wow I'm like two different colors, its gross. >.< my thighs are like white and the rest of my leg is dark. time to go get a tan in the backyard in my underwear haha jk :PP well time to go rest and find that glitter ive been hunting down for the picture frame...i hope he likes it.

Wait..When I was looking for the glitter, I found the box of notes he had written for me. When I opened and read each one of them, I bursted into tears so i had to go to the restroom and lock the door so no one will see me..hmm </3 i can't take it anymore.. 120209

Mhmmm.

Another day...Today was an okay day. I went to the doctors for a yearly check up. When they weighed me, I lost a couple pounds. That's something good haha since it's summer.(: Then I met this doctor in training. She was very nice and open. She asked me about college and told me things I had no idea about. x)  I can't wait to be where she's at. I can't wait to treat kids and help them feel allll bwetter. Haha I didn't need any shots today. *YAY* But the other four did ;P After that we went to the library and I was just looking at the places me and Edward walked to when he came to visit me at the library. Good times. <3 Hm, oh how I miss him.......
After that we went to HEB to buy food for tomorrow. As I was pushing the cart, this adorable Mexican boy, around three years of age, screamed wait to me haha aw and like I started to play with him & he would laugh so much. Then I started to hide from him & he kept trying to look for me haha (: (: && Yeah I'll add more details when I can. (: 120209

Sigh

It's been exactly a week since we haven't talked. My day was alright. I stayed up til like 6 am talking to Adrian. Lol I like to talk to him because then I can stay up and watch the sunrise. But like I guess was still too early so after hanging up, I decided to wait til 7 but then I fell asleep. -____- Anywho then the kids came to Jackie's get-together-tennis party. && around 4 30 Kyra came to the tennis court with Julie & Vivie to go swim. Lol the lifeguard only let me in because I was old enough so then we had to wait for mommy to come. Urgh she came 2 hours later and we had a nice swim. When I was walking to the pool by myself, these Mexican guys un their cars slowed down and said "Hola Baby." Haha weeeird. I wished it was Edward. I wished Edward was at the pool. Urgh. :/  I miss him terribly that I can't even put the right words down. It's all in my heart. 120209


Ah we're on BING. http://www.bing.com/images/search?q=jennifer+villatoro&go=&qs=n&sk=&sc=2-18&form=QBIR

Sweet Dreams

These past three days, I haven't seen Edward in my dreams. I keep dreaming of people I know at random moments. Like Sarah playing tennis with Zubair? Or Eros telling me about his gf? && faces from the past. Last night, I dreamt I was at my orchestra concert. Mr. Jiang, my teacher was there. Except he had weird hair >.< Anywho there was this little kid who stuck out the most. He was Jackie's classmate and his name was Timothy. Somehow I had switched violin cases with him and I went to get it back. In his case he had some note that it written, " I gotta accept that I am not good at social contact." Something like that. In the dream I felt like helping him out. I wanted to tell him not to worry about it. If people do want to talk to you, they will come to you. I guess the dream was telling me to not worry about it. I mean I shouldn't. A lot of people have helped me by including me in the conversations, he said it's my fault. :/ Hmm Whatever ..as long as it doesnt happen between me and him,  im fine. <33 120209

I wanna spend my life with you. Just you. And nobody else. But you.

                                      I never want You to go.

Look into my eyes you'll find me . Look into my heart and you'll find you.

Revisiting Omgpop

 

What Is Love?

I had totally forgotten about this. Today, something told me to just get back on && I was going through old messages and wallposts and all. Then went I went to the questions page, this is what I saw. Hehe my dork replied to all the questions I had posted. I love the one where he said he wants me for xmas and his definition of love. Brings a big, big, big, big OMG BIG dorky smile to my face. I love you, Edward Villatoro! <3120209



A Real Relationship :
Has fights. Has trust. Has faith. Has tears. Has hurt. Has sweet smiles. Has genuine laughter. Has weird, stupid, unnecessary arguments. Has patience. Hascommunication. Has secrets. Has jealousy. And most importantly, love. This is all just a mess that turns out beautiful & an experience that can never be forgotten.


I got this from Rambo's Tumblr. Makes so much sense.

One day, the tables will turn. And instead, it will be you missing me. It will be you, checking my Facebook and Tumblr, because ‘maybe’ I’ll write something about you. It will be you, wishing you could talk to me. It will be you reminiscing about the memories. One day, you will miss me like I missed you. But by then,

It will be too late....